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The Bookcase Sessions 03 – Lily Hand Mantra

Presenting the third in my periodic series of live acoustic demos recorded to determine which songs will be given the “album treatment” and appear on my next record, “Keyhole.” You can check out the first two songs as well, “Torn Apart” and “The Worried Days.”

The purpose of the Bookcase Sessions is to determine which of these twenty five or so songs will make the cut on “Keyhole.” I’m counting on you to help me figure that out by rating, commenting on, favoriting and sharing these videos on YouTube. Please do so for “Lily Hand Mantra!”

“Lily Hand Mantra” was written on February 17, 1990… wow, almost twenty years ago!

Again, this little crowdsourced vetting experiment depends on your participation, so please be so kind as to rate and comment on the video at YouTube, and if you really like it, add it to your favorites and share it around.

Hazy Days and Cloudy Nights 01.013: How It All Got Started: Leave It ‘Till The End Of The Party

Previously: Crystal DuBois, after catching Preston VanHart cheating on her, caught Eric Finn trying to rape Lina Porter. Crystal kicked the shit out of Eric. Meanwhile, Alex Kent fears he’s made a mistake with Heather Leighton…

"Leave It 'Till The End Of The Party"

Eventually, it was just Crystal and Preston in the house. They stood inside the front door. Preston looked anywhere but at her and chewed on the skin of his thumb.

"See ya," Crystal said.

"Uh... yeah."

"Do me a favor and stick my stuff in a bag or something." She opened the door and stepped through. "I'll get someone to come by and pick it up."

Preston nodded. He still didn't look at her.

"Way to fuck it all up forever, Preston," Crystal said.

He finally did look at her. She could see he was still a little buzzed. His attempt at a smile was quick and weak and didn't survive when he took his thumb out of his mouth. "Yeah. You... think forever?"

Crystal closed the screen door so black mesh and wrought iron was between them. Her chest constricted; she forced a few quick breaths in and out to control threatening tears. "You know me. I can forgive a lot."

He brightened a little.

"But you went and fucked Tall Skinny motherfucking Gail."

Preston's face fell. Crystal pressed on.

"It's like you deliberately took a shit on my fucking heart, Preston." She shook her head. It was time to bail if she was going to keep it together.

"On my fucking heart, Preston."

"Crys..."

"Later."

She turned her back on him and walked as fast as she could without breaking into a run. She got to her old Nova, got behind the wheel, jammed the key into the ignition and gave it a vicious twist.

The engine came to life, and with it, the cassette in the tape deck. John and Exene sang about painting the town blue. Crystal blinked and drove through tears that turned the streetlights into smeary stars.


Heather pulled in front of Alex’s house, put the car in park and engaged the brake. Her smile was vulnerable, hopeful and guarded. “Here we are.”

“Yep.” Alex smiled back. “I’m sorry about this.”

Her laugh was short and a little frantic. “What about? It’s no big deal.”

They looked at each other. Her smile started to stiffen from the eyes down. Alex leaned forward, gave her a chaste kiss on the lips, and opened the car door. “See you soon..?”

“Not if I see you first,” Heather said.

He laughed politely. “Good night.”

“Good night.”

He stepped out of the car, closed the door, and stood at the end of his driveway until her car was out of sight. It was the right thing to do; he guessed that she would be checking her rear view mirror as she left. He didn’t want to be a dick.

Too late for that. He was a dick. Sleeping with someone he didn’t really love; that was new ground. He felt like shit.

He let himself into the dark house, felt his way to his bedroom, closed the door and turned on the light. It was only 12:30… it was early! Should he risk calling Angel? Would she answer fast enough to avoid waking up her folks? Was she already asleep?

Was she out, on a date with jock-prick Mike Dante?

That was an ugly thought.

Would he be able to call her, talk to her at all, on the phone in the kitchen without waking up his parents? His dad would be pissed…

He stood in his bedroom and weighed it out.

“Fuck this.” He slapped the wall switch down, clicking off his bedroom overhead light, and crept into the kitchen. The way he figured it… and this was twisted, but right… he owed it to Heather to call Angel.

He dialed Angel’s number by memory and touch. The phone rang once, almost twice, and there she was.

“Hello..?”

“Hey!” Alex kept his voice down. “Did I wake you up?”

“Hey..!” She was likewise half-whispering. “No… but you might have woken up my dad…!”

“Sorry… I… we haven’t talked for a few days. I couldn’t sleep; thought I’d catch up with you.”

Alex was mortified to discover that he was nervous. This was Angel, for Christ’s sake.

Exactly.

“Well…” Her tone told him she thought he could have waited until tomorrow to catch up, but here they were. “I guess I’m all right.”

“You guess? That’s not the same as all right.”

“Guess not.”

Alex couldn’t decide if he felt bad for his friend or excited that her less-than-optimal mood might be because of Mike Dante being an asshole. “So? Tell me.”

She sighed into the phone. “Ugh. It’s nothing.”

That was new. There was no “it’s nothing” between them. They didn’t work that way. “C’mon, Angel. It’s me.”

“Yeah.” She sounded dubious.

“So?”

He was ready to hear about a bad date. He was ready to be pissed off if Dante had been mean to her, or worse, tried to do something she didn’t want.

“Are you…” She sighed heavily. “Do you like me, Alex?”

Whoa. He wasn’t ready for that.


Car did not have an easy time getting Lina out of the car and into the house. She wasn’t a big girl, but she was dead weight, and he was acutely conscious of not wanting to accidentally hurt her.

First, he got her arm across his shoulders and held her tight around her waist. Hopefully, she would stumble along with him.

She didn’t. Her feet dragged along the driveway.

He’d never tried carrying anyone before, but there didn’t seem to be any other right way to do this. Car crouched down, hooked his left arm under Lina’s knees, and straightened up. He wasn’t especially weak or especially strong, so it took some effort to straighten his legs, keep her steady, and not fall backwards. He grunted and hoped none of his neighbors were watching.

“Okay. Here we go.”

Car lurched up the slope of his front walk and got to the front door, which was when he realized his keys were in his front pocket. He needed a free hand. He had to put Lina down.

Bracing Lina between himself and the door frame, Car fished out his keys and got the door open. He got Lina through the door as carefully as possible and closed and locked the door.

He picked up Lina again. Her breath tickled his neck and she mumbled something unintelligible.

“Almost there, Lina…”

He carried her back to his bedroom and lay her on the bed without bothering to pull down the spread. Instead, he folded it over her as and figured it would be enough of a blanket.

Lina mumbled something else and even moved a little, settling into the bed. Carson felt something loosen in his chest and he let out a long, shuddering breath.

“Oh, god, Lina,” he whispered. “No more nights like tonight. Jesus.”

She slept.

Car padded into the kitchen and got himself a drink of water. He noticed the answering machine’s little red LED blinking. Car feared it was Lina’s parents, but he wasn’t about to call them until Lina was awake and coherent. There’d be hell to pay, but the price wouldn’t be that much higher tomorrow morning. Lina needed to rest.

Hell, he needed to rest. Now that Lina was truly safe, the adrenaline he hadn’t known was sustaining him melted out of him in a flood. He stumbled back to the bedroom, lay down beside his friend, and closed his eyes.

“Lina…” Another wave of relief hit him. He blinked tears. “Okay. Okay.” She was safe. Crystal DuBois beat the shit out of Eric Finn — he’d be feeling that tomorrow, the fucker. And Lina was safe, here, with him.

He rolled onto his side and pulled her close against him. “You’re safe.”

Car’s sleep was thick with anxiety and cloudy threats. When the phone rang, it yanked him awake with a start.

The clock said four eighteen. For the rest of his life, more often than not, he would inexplicably manage to look at a clock at least once a week at exactly four eighteen.

Sleep fuzzed and blunted his reluctance to face Lina’s parents. He picked up the phone.

“Hello..?”

“Carson…. Carson, thank god. Thank god.”

It wasn’t Grant or Amanda Porter.

“Uncle Mick..?”

“Carson… Carson, buddy, I need you to wake up, okay? I need to tell you something, kiddo. Okay? Are you… are you ready?”

…to be continued!

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Punk Rock Songs – A Lyric

It’s pretty rare that I write lyrics independent of having a melody in my head or actually writing / coming up with the music at the same time, but that’s what happened tonight, so I thought I’d share.

This started out as a vignette loosely based on my memory of a night at a new girlfriend’s house about twenty years ago or so… but while I was writing it, the piece started to ask to be a poem. Then, the poem asked to be lyrics.

So that’s how it ended up. I hope some music comes eventually. When it does, the structure of the lyric will no doubt change some. For now, here we go:

Punk Rock Songs

Thirty miles in my car
Up the drive and up the stairs
Your black eyes at the door
Pull me in with a smile

Inside it’s soft and warm
Candles and Christmas lights
Half a beer bottle salute
Your roommate’s already drunk
and I could stay here
forever.

I could stay in tonight
the rest of my life.
I could stay in tonight
the rest of my life.

You and me and her a while.
Punk rock songs on the stereo.
Teach me the words
teach me the words.
Sing along, sing along
harmony and alcohol.
Sing along, sing along
harmony and alcohol

and I could stay in tonight
the rest of my life.
Let me stay in tonight
the rest of my life.

We’re starting something you and me
fragile and bright
traced by guitars.
It glows with its own light
and everything is real and right.

Your roommate surrender smiles
and it’s just you and me.
Punk rock songs on the stereo.
Sing along, sing along.
Punk rock songs on the stereo.
Kiss along, kiss along.

Just let me stay in tonight
the rest of my life.
Let me stay in tonight
the rest of my life.

The Bookcase Sessions 02 – The Worried Days

Here’s the second in my periodic series of live acoustic demos recorded to determine which songs will be given the “album treatment” and appear on my next album, “Keyhole.” Yes, it’s only been a day or two since the first one went live, and it’ll probably be just a day or so until the next one… I recorded a few good takes in one session and I feel like throwing them out there. Why wait?

It’s your comments, favorites and ratings on YouTube that will help decided what songs make the cut, so please act accordingly with regard to “The Worried Days” and, if you haven’t already, give a listen to “Torn Apart,” the first of the Bookcase Sessions, too.

“The Worried Days” was written on April 11, 1989.

Again, this little crowdsourced vetting experiment depends on your participation, so please be so kind as to rate and comment on the video at YouTube, and if you really like it, add it to your favorites and share it around.

Thanks!

The Bookcase Sessions 01 – Torn Apart

I have several composition books full of over two hundred songs I’ve written over the last twenty five years. I’m going to dip into that catalog (with some new additions, no doubt) for my next album, which will be titled “Keyhole.” There will be twelve or fifteen tracks on the record. I need your help to figure out which songs those will be!

Periodically, I’ll do a quick and dirty live demo of a possible song, film it, and throw it on YouTube. Once there are twenty five or so of them up there, I’ll look at the number of views, the ratings, the number of favorites and the comments on each, and those factors will help me decide which ones will get a more polished treatment for inclusion on “Keyhole.”

Here’s the first one! The words for “Torn Apart” were written on July 1, 1987. The music came on April 30, 1988.

Please be so kinds as to rate and comment on the video at YouTube, and if you really like it, add it to your favorites and share it around.

Thanks!

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