I’m Doing National Novel Writing Month

National Novel Writing Month is an event / contest / challenge wherein participants strive to write 50,000 words of a single novel in the month of November. It’s been an annual event for years. I’m going to give it a shot this year.

November is the worst possible month for this, and since National Novel Writing Month is really a promotional event to raise money for their non-profit Young Writers Program, they would conceivably do better to choose a month where folks weren’t wrapped up in end-of-year holiday obligations and end-of-year rush-to-donate competition from other charities. But whatever.

I’m still gonna do it, mainly because I saw that some friends tweeted about doing it. The way things being what they are, I made the commitment and the friends who inspired it apparently (as far as I know and at the time of this writing) have not. Oops.

So be it. I’m going for it anyway. What do I hope to achieve?

Well, first off, I don’t care if I win (hit 50,000 words before the end of November.) My goal is to write a huge chunk of the first book in my Shaper’s World milieu – if that’s 50,000 words, great. If it’s less, that’s still going to amount to more than I have right now. I’ll call that a win.

What’s going to detour time and energy away from NaNoWriMo? Day job. Preparing my anthology “The Sovereign Era: Year One” for release before the end of Fall. Writing two installments of “Hazy Days and Cloudy Nights,” which is about 4000 words or eight hours right there. Another project that’s mostly done that I can’t talk about yet, but it’s supposed to come out at the end of November. Life.

So what.

If you want to follow my progress, here is my NaNoWriMo profile page. If you’re doing NaNoWriMo, friend me up over there, too. Let’s pile up some words and jump on them at the end of November like a heap of Autumn leaves.

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Hazy Days and Cloudy Nights 01.011: How It All Got Started: The Party, Part Two

Previously: Lina Porter thinks it might be time to break up with her cute older boyfriend, since no one likes him. Crystal Dubois has been playing gatekeeper at her boyfriend Preston’s party while he’s off having fun.

“The Party, Part Two”
Seeing Eric crouching by the stereo with Ian and Tammy, Lina realized with jarring clarity that she didn’t want to talk to him. A breath before she could look away, he raised his hand and motioned her to come over.

Lina turned to Carson. Just tell me to go with you, wherever you’re about to go, make a decision to take three steps away from the stereo, drag me with you, c’mon, Car…

Some loadie called to Car from the kitchen and Car turned in his direction. Lina touched his arm lightly.

Car turned; she smiled at him. Before she could grab hold of his sleeve, he gave her an apologetic grin and started to turn for the kitchen.

In the time it took for Car to slip out of reach, Lina decided she was being a little girl. Loadie-doofus was obviously some old buddy of Carson’s, and hell, she had called Eric Wednesday specifically to make sure he’d here so they could straighten things out. Time to make like a grown-up.

She went over to Eric, Ian and Tammy. Ian’s pupils were huge; he was already well on his way tonight. Tammy had a hand on his shoulder and a bored expression on her face. Eric stood up and offered Lina a hug.

She let him, but kept one arm at her side. Eric smelled like pomade, cigarettes and beer. When they broke their hug she put a finger under her nose to stifle a sneeze.

“Are you catching a cold..?”

His sideburns and pompadour somehow made his concerned expression… what? Lina couldn’t find the word. “No… don’t worry about it.”

Creepy?

Tammy stood and helped Ian to his feet. Ian spoke carefully. “We are going outside.”

Eric put his hands on Ian’s shoulders. He smiled and mocked Ian’s attempt to not sound wasted. “All right, Ian. You go outside.”

Ian shook his head, grinning. He looked at Lina as Tammy guided him past. He giggled at her, and it was absolutely more of a laughing-at than laughing-with kind of thing.

What the fuck?

Lina looked back to Eric, who had a beer in each hand. He offered one to her.

She took the bottle; it was already open and still cold. “Thanks.”

“You’re welcome.” He clinked their bottles together. “Cheers to ya.” He lifted his bottle to his lips and drank. His eyes stayed open. His eyes stayed on her.

For Lina, this was a little too much like the trailer. Except, thankfully, they were in Preston VanHart’s living room, Carson was a few feet away being assaulted by good will from the doofus, and there were fifteen or twenty other people all over the house.

If she was going to talk to Eric, she needed this drink. She drank. Eric smiled.

“All right,” he said. “So… you promised me you would call.”

“I did call.”

“That was Wednesday.” He wagged his index finger at her. “You told me in the car — you remember, when I came and picked you up after you walked out on me — that you’d call me the next day. Which would have been Tuesday.” He took a swig, swallowed, and grinned, triumphant and… what else? What was she seeing in him tonight she hadn’t seen before?

Oh, right. Eric was a dick.

Claire was right.

Everybody was right.

Lina was a loser, dating a loser.

Fuck.

She grinned right back. “You didn’t seem to care when I called you on Wednesday. Why bring it up now?”

“Hell,” he laughed. “You barely kept me on the phone long enough to bring it up. You just made sure I was coming here, and then you were all excuses to get off the phone.” He shook his head. “Seriously, Lina.”

“I was at Claire’s. It was, like, her phone.”

He laughed, short and ugly, and studied his beer. “Oh, I know. I could hear her in the background, making gagging noises like a ten year old.” He looked at Lina. “Like a bitch.”

Lina didn’t like looking at him. That was weird, because it was new. She took a long pull off the beer to hide it.

“How’s the beer?” Eric asked.

“Fine.”

In fact, it was hitting her hard. “Look, Eric…” She gritted her teeth; her throat felt tight and her equilibrium was going sideways. “Look, we need to talk.”

He nodded, smiling again. “Ah, right. The talk. Sure. C’mon.”

He went across the living room and toward the hallway with long, quick strides. “Hey!” Lina had to follow him. Her feet felt funny. She held on to the beer.

Eric opened the door at the end of the hall. “After you.”

Lina managed to slip past without touching him, but couldn’t avoid bumping hard against the door frame. She should have had more for dinner. She licked her lips, thirsty despite herself. A small sip wouldn’t do that much worse to her. Car was in the next room. House full of people.

She was in the master bedroom; Preston’s mother’s room, probably. She sat down heavily on the edge of the bed and grabbed the spread with one hand to keep a wave of dizziness from fucking with her.

“So.” Eric shut the door behind him. They were alone. “Give it to me, Lina.”

“Give you… what..?” Crap, how did she get so drunk? One beer! Her ears roared.

“The talk.” He took a step toward her. “Or did you bring me in here to give me something else?”

She didn’t bring him in here! He made her… she followed..!

Lina opened her mouth, ready to give him hell. Just as soon as she could make her head work. Make her head make the letters make words out of sharp squeaky sticks she couldn’t put together. Here they were…

Words.

Coming together.

Any second now.


Crystal tired of her post at the front door. She spotted potential relief. “Brad!”

Brad Krueger bobbed his head in acknowledgment and crossed the living room to her. “Hey, Crystal.” He was almost a foot and a half taller than Crystal and kept his chin down to talk to her. “Cool hat.”

“Thanks. Look, somebody’s gotta play doorman for a while. Preston doesn’t want those kids across the street to crash the party. I have to pee. And I want a beer. Can you…”

Brad nodded vigorously. “No problem, Crystal! Hey — do I get to wear the hat?”

Crystal took the pork-pie hat off her head and pushed it over Brad’s haphazard ball of curly brown hair. “You get to wear the hat.”

Brad grinned. “Nice.”

“Thanks!” Crystal decided to go for the beer before the bathroom. It would give her a chance to check in with Preston and see if he’d done his acid yet. That could go either way. She didn’t want to have to babysit him all night; she wanted to have fun.

She passed through the kitchen and went into the back yard. A few people were hanging out there; she nodded to Star Bell (girl belonged in a forties movie with a name like that, she thought for the millionth time…) and exchange a hug-and-hello with Dennis Vale. That was fun, if only because it made Dennis’ Barbie-doll majorette fiance Isabel stiffen with jealousy. Bitch.

No one was in the little one-room back house because Preston hadn’t yet turned on the hundreds of purple Christmas lights. That was the deal with a party at the House of Back — the level of fun / inebriation / wastedness needed to rise a little before the back house opened for business and people gravitated to its tight confines. Preston thought he was playing with the crowd; Crystal enjoyed the experiment but knew it wasn’t worth much when, let’s face it, there was no control group among their friends.

The back house was also where she and Preston had stashed a cooler of the good beer earlier this afternoon. Crystal went inside, found the cooler in the dim light and grabbed an Elephant. The bottle was wet from soaking in half-melted ice, which made it easy to scrape off the label. It wouldn’t do for people to wonder where or how she got something better than Corona and Miller Genuine Draft. She popped the cap with the bottle opener on her key chain and half-sneaked back to the main house.

So. No Preston in the living room, back yard, or back house. His room, then. She went down the hall and opened the door. Several expectant faces looked up through a cloying haze, including Ian Pinchley and Jeff Hargis. Jeff waved at her, his smile stiff from holding in the smoke from the toke he’d just inhaled.

Crystal let the sweet-smelling fumes come and go through her lungs, taking advantage of the contact high. “You guys seen Preston?”

Jeff croaked, “Nope,” and exhaled.

“Thanks.” Crystal stepped back into the hallway and closed the door. Might as well go to the bathroom.

She was reaching for the bathroom door when it opened. Crystal automatically took a step back.

Gail nearly bumped into her coming out, anyway. “Oh! Hi!”

Tall Skinny Gail. She wore a black sequined flapper dress that fell off her shoulders like a rectangle, accentuating her long, angular body. Her hair, waist-length and thick and honey-blonde and just about the only thing Crystal was genuinely envious of, was out of sorts. Her make-up was all fucked up.

Gail closed the door behind her.

Crystal sneered at her. “What are you doing here?” For that matter, when had the bitch slipped past her?

“I… oh, you know.” Gail tried to smile sweetly, but it was a soap-opera maneuver; both women hated each other’s guts. “Just hanging out.”

Gail brushed past her toward the living room. “You got nothing there to hang out, Tall Skinny Gail,” Crystal muttered. She reached for the bathroom door knob and stopped.

The light was still on in there.

Gail’s make-up was a mess. Why would she leave the bathroom without fixing herself up?

Her hair was disheveled. You’d have to work pretty hard to put hair that heavy out of place.

Where the fuck was Preston?

All these thoughts passed though Crystal’s mind in a fraction of a second. Furious, she opened the bathroom door.

Preston leaned against the sink. He grinned sheepishly. “Hi.”

The narrow, curling line of smoke rising from a little cone of incense on the sink counter hadn’t overpowered the sticky smell of sex. It was as thick as the pot smoke in Preston’s bedroom. Crystal hung on the door and swayed, momentarily paralyzed with rage.

Her voice came low from her throat. “You piece of shit.” Her lungs took in air heavy with incense and pheromones and that powered volume that notched louder with every subsequent word: “You mother fucking dick!”

“Crystal, hey, it not–”

Preston took a step toward her. She didn’t hesitate. She pushed him with both hands. It sounded like he fell back against the sink. but Crystal had already turned around, was already moving down the hall, forcing herself not to run, forcing herself not to cry.

In fact, fuck crying. She wanted to kill him. If she didn’t get away from him, she’d do it. And fuck him if he was going to make her have a scene in front of everyone here.

Half these assholes probably knew what was going on, anyway. Guaranteed everyone in Preston’s bedroom did. Had he smoked out Gail, too, before he fucked her over the goddamn toilet?

She needed to be away from everybody for five minutes before she could move through the house, get her shit and go home. If she saw that fucking bitch on the way, she didn’t care who else was around; she’d fucking clock her.

She needed five minutes. Five minutes to breathe, to put the wall back up, to not look like a fool. Get her stupid hat back from Brad.

She whipped open Preston’s mother’s bedroom door.

What she saw there did not improve her mood.

…to be continued!

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About The Twelve Ideas Project

Twelve Ideas Update — 01-04-10: The community has spoken… or, rather, not spoken. The “Twelve Ideas” project has been shelved due to lack of community interest. Thanks to the nine people who submitted ideas!

I want your ideas. Lots of them. I need twelve of them to make Twelve Ideas a reality.

Twelve Ideas is a new project of mine. Of ours, actually. I’m going to have collaborators, and I hope you’ll be among them.

What Is The Twelve Ideas Project?

“Twelve Ideas” is the name of an album I’m going to compose, perform and record consisting of twelve songs. The record will be released some time in the spring or summer of 2010.

“Twelve Ideas” is the name of a collection of twelved short stories I’m going to write and publish as a collected edition in print, e-book and podcast formats. The collection will also be released some time in the spring or summer of 2010.

Each of the Twelve Ideas will come from one of you.

Your Inspiration Wanted

I don’t necessarily need help coming up with twelve songs to fill an album, or ideas for twelve short stories. Goodness knows I’ve got a backlog of songs and a gazillion stories to write. However, I had a remarkable experience across the Spring and Summer of this year — a collaborative experience that challenged my creative abilities as a musician like never before. It was great fun, and the end result was some work I’m very proud to have been involved with. It made me want to try it again.

This is me we’re talking about, so I didn’t want to exactly duplicate the experience. I wanted another challenge. Since, again, this is me, I also wanted to find a way to involve the community — all you awesome people who are so creative and passionate in your own right.

So I’m counting on you to send me Ideas. I’ll choose twelve of them that really resonate with me, really move me, really inspire me… and I’ll write twelve songs and twelve short stories based on those ideas.

The twelve folks whose ideas I use will each get signed copies of the CD and book when they’re published, and of course I’ll credit their inspiration in the introduction of the book and the liner notes of the CD. I’ll list everyone else’s ideas here on the site, with attribution, as well.

As ideas come in and I begin to make my selections, I’ll keep everyone posted here on the site in blog posts, videos of rough cuts and rehearsals of the songs, and I’m sure I’ll tweet the progress of the project as well. Together, we’ll make the Twelve Ideas Project a community-based, world-wide event!

What Kind of Ideas?

That’s up to you… something from your heart that also has a universal resonance probably has the best chance of striking a chord in my own breast. Be brief in your expression — capture the germ; remember, I’m only looking to be inspired by your idea, not co-write a song and a story with you. Hit me with something that’s going to make me think… and make me feel.

Submit Your Idea

Fill out the form below to submit your idea. Ideas submitted through the comments of this post will be deleted; I don’t want you to be influenced or swayed by reading what others have submitted. Your submission of an idea indicates that you agree with the conditions of your participation, so make sure you read and agree with those conditions before you submit your idea.

No more submissions accepted at this time.

Conditions

The legal stuff is unavoidable, I’m afraid, both for our mutual protection and to eliminate any chance of confusion or misunderstanding:

Your participation in the 12 Ideas Project does not infer or imply any partnership or working arrangement of any kind with Matthew Wayne Selznick. You agree to waive your right to claim ownership or intellectual property rights to songs, music, lyrics, compositions, stories or other creative assets created as a result of your participation in the 12 Ideas Project now or in the future in any medium. By participating in the 12 Ideas Project, you grant Matthew Wayne Selznick, his heirs and assigns a non-exclusive, royalty free perpetual license to use all material you submit in any fashion, for any purpose and in any medium. By submitting material to the Twelve Ideas Project through this website or through any other method, you agree to these conditions without exception and without reserve.

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Value, Worth, Merit and Intangible Goods

My friend, colleague and former boss Chris Miller wrote a compelling post about the nature and meaning of value when many “valuable” things are made of bits and bytes. You should go read it, then come back here.

In his post, Chris asks several questions. My personal rule is if my response to a blog post is as long or longer than the original, you should write your own post. So, here are my attempts to answer those questions. It’s likely I’ll have a few of my own before I’m done.

Chris asks, “Does the fact that (a work) is digital affect its value? How does time figure into the equation?”

As someone who sells both digital (non-tangible) goods and material (tangible) goods, I believe many factors enter into the worth of a digital work. It’s important to recognize that a particular work is going to have different value to the creator and the consumer.

Generally speaking, many of the costs involved in manufacturing, distributing, stocking, returning and destroying a tangible good are just not a factor with an intangible good. So as a consumer, I expect the intangible good to be considerably less expensive than the tangible. If a hardcover book is $27.99, the e-book should be somewhere around 1/3 the price… or less. I’m not comfortable paying more than $10.00 for a book-length e-book or an album-length collection of MP3s. I’m willing to pay more for a tangible book or a CD because I’m paying for universal compatibility, portability and the fact that I will actually own what I’ve purchased.

Seriously, look at the licensing agreements for most of the digital goods you purchase. The fact that there’s a licensing agreement at all should clue you that you’re not actually buying the item — you’re paying for a license to use the it under a specific set of circumstances. You don’t own that software you just downloaded, no matter what you paid for it.

So as a consumer, usually digital goods have a diminished value to me when compared to the same item in tangible form. If the digital good isn’t shackled by digital rights management restrictions and licensing schemes, its value is higher for me.

As a creator, my idea of the value and worth of my work is dependent on a number of factors determined both by myself and by the consumer.

Chris asks, “How does time figure into the equation?” He could mean the time potentially saved by purchasing a digital good, but I’m going to take it to mean the time it takes to create something, regardless of how that something ends up being consumed. That’s certainly one of the factors I take into account.

The time I put into a creative work is something I hope the consumer will consider when they evaluate whether or not it’s worth paying whatever price is assigned. Example: It takes me, on average, about and hour and a half to write 1,000 words of fiction. That’s just the writing — never mind the planning, editing, brainstorming, backstory creation, and so on. What is that time worth?

I also want the consumer to consider the the actual entertainment value of something I’ve created. Quite simply, if I make something and it creates an emotional response in the consumer, I expect the consumer to compensate me in part based on the degree of emotional response. That’s something the consumer has to decide for themselves. This is why I make versions of my creative works freely available — how can I expect someone to assign a value based on experience if the experience can’t be had until they pay?

Another factor is the likelihood of repeated uses. Software, music, non-fiction — these are all things that might be re-used repeatedly. The consumer is likely to get continued value from these things over time. It should be acceptable to pay more for an item you’re likely to use more often.

Do I think people are getting something less valuable or less worthy when they purchase an intangible version of one of my creations? No — because the same amount of time, passion and energy went into creating it, and the emotional impact on the consumer is the same regardless of the medium.

Here’s another thing for a creator to keep in mind when they assign a price (or the expectation of a price) to one of their intangible goods: one can expect to continue earning money on that work as long as one makes it available. At some point in time, a creator will have to conclude that a particular piece of work has earned back whatever it “cost” to create it, and everything from that point forward is profit. That’s the epitome of the Long Tail.

Chris also asks if getting a digital good for free diminishes its worth or value. Well, it doesn’t for me, in part because I recognize the time, effort, energy and passion that went into its initial creation. In fact, if I get something for free and receive a good emotional experience from it, I’m likely to compensate the creator. That’s what I want them to do with me, after all!

I can’t speak for the rest of the world. I know many people simply expect a digital good to be free, and don’t consider the needs of the source. A big part of my creative mission is to educate those people and turn them into patrons.

Chris closes his blog post with this question:

(H)as the advent of digital content fundamentally changed they way we think about purchasing goods, and if so, is that change for the better? Or, has this change made consumption a reflex, a non-thought? In both cases, what does that say about the bond we have with the content, what is it’s relative value to us when compared to a real-world physical product?

Of course, that’s several questions, which makes it a little tricky to respond succinctly. So…

Has the advent of digital content changed how we think about purchasing goods? Yes.

Is that change for the better? Ultimately, what we’re talking about is the acquisition of information getting faster and easier. That’s a good thing.

Has this change made consumption a reflex, a non-thought? Nope. Consumption still takes action, still takes thought. Both of those things are a kind of currency.

What about the bond we have with the content, and how does it compare with our relationship with physical product? Let’s look at it this way. I recently read a wonderful book, “Cursed,” by Jeremy Shipp. I’ll have a review for you soon. I read it as an intangible product — an e-book. It’s lingered in my head, it still makes me smile, it still causes me to marvel at Shipp’s skill a few weeks after the fact. I could see myself reading it again. The emotional reward of that book is in no way diminished by it’s intangibility. The worth is in the work.

On the other hand, I read another book, in paperback, some months ago. It was written by an author who appeared on more than a few podcasts I listen to; it has some great, gushy blurbs on the cover. To me, it was about as deep and resonant as a session playing Contra. I’ll never read it again; I’m not going to read the sequels; the physical presence of the paperback on my bookshelf actually has negative value because it’s taking up space that could be put to better use. If it was an intangible good, I would have deleted it by now. I haven’t given the book away because that would take effort.

The value of content is, for me at least, mostly dependent upon the value of the content, not the form the content takes.

Chris doesn’t take any specific stance one way or another in his post — it’s designed to generate response, like the old Saturday Night Live skit, Coffee Talk: “Intangible media: Tangible value? Discuss.” I’d like to hear what he actually thinks. It’s possible he wrote the post to help him figure that out, which is a perfectly valid technique.

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