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No New Memories
Words: 05-03 ~ 06 -1994
Music: 05-03 ~ 06 -1994
What’s It All About?
Years after losing touch with a woman who I loved dearly and who put me through a good deal of hell, I heard from a mutual friend that she wasn’t doing much differently by her husband. The knowledge created some mixed feelings… it dredged up all the stuff we had gone through, made me feel bad for the current guy, and made me very, very grateful that I wasn’t in his position any more.
I played this song a lot in my solo acoustic sets, and since it was one of those songs Gary Fitch insisted need a full band treatment, that’s what it got when we formed Running Erin with Erin Foster and Tony Dare.
The first version included here is a music video from the “mocumentary” Running Erin made with Not Afraid! Productions in 2000 or so. Then there’s a live version from Running Erin, and finally my original from the cassette four-track mini-album from 1994, “Hundred Seller.”
Lyrics:
When I hear tell of the things
That you do
I’m reminded of the days
Of me and you
You would think such things would fade
From my mind
Yet the games you played
Have grown clearer over time
I can hear your voice like I’m
Back there again
Sayin’ “There’s nothing there
That guy is just a friend”
It gets ’round to me
Your latest escapade
I just shake my head
I know, I’ve already played
I have felt the fear
The jealousy, the dread
I have trembled helplessly
Hangin’ by your thread
I remember this
That
And the other things
All the pain you put me though
Yeah, on and on
I could sing
I remember, I remember
Though I wish that I did not
Just one thing
To ease my mind
Just one thing have I got
I’m glad
That I have
No new memories of you
I feel sorry for the man who’s trapped
By you
I know he wonders what are your lies
And what is true
I really feel for him and I hope
That he breaks free
Still I can’t help thinkin’
“Better him than me”
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Music Video:
MP3s:
No New Memories by Matthew Wayne Selznick w/ Running Erin (live) [4:04m]: Play Now | Play in Popup | Download (106) No New Memories by Matthew Wayne Selznick [4:35m]: Play Now | Play in Popup | Download (104)Second “Sister”
Words: 02-14-16-2001
Music: 02-14-16-2001
What’s It All About?
This was written thinking about my old high-school girlfriend. She and I had a relationship that, as I remember it, was even more tumultuous and full of drama than most at that age. It wasn’t until twenty years later that we finally understood: our continual crises weren’t thanks to my melodramatic nature, her abusive father, or her own self destructive tendencies. Well, not entirely. Turns out she’s also had a form of schizophrenia that wasn’t diagnosed until late in her thirties.
Damn, that explained a lot.
The Sonic Youth
Lyrics:
Can you train your sadness
Optimize reluctance
Go on record baby
Stand behind
Your mind
Do you hold surprises
As you dodge inquiries
Open letters waiting
Who knows what
You’ll find?
I went down to
Meet a friend
‘Til his sister came over
Blew my mind again
Can you find the answer
Sanity relapser
Go out on a limb
That’s where
I am
All of the time
So pay it no mind
Stand by your mind
Support Independent Music
The media files on this page are provided for your enjoyment — you can listen, and even download the MP3 files, and not pay a dime. I encourage you to share them with friends, provided no one changes or sells the files, and that you attribute them to me.
I do hope you’ll consider contributing an amount proportional to how much you like these songs. When you pay for music on this site, you declare yourself to be a patron of independent creative endeavors… and my supporter. That means a great deal, and I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
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“Nightswimming” by Gabriel D. W. Wollenburg
A year or so ago (probably more), I had it in my head that I would release an anthology called “Wordhouse: Songs and Stories.” The theme would be short stories inspired by, but not literally adapted from, songs that particularly inspired the authors.
I overextended myself, like I do now and then, and had to let the project be shelved… for now.
Yesterday was International Pixel-stained Techno-peasant Day, when authors are encouraged to post their writing for free on the Internet. This, as you can guess, is something I whole-heartedly support. Imagine my glee when I discovered that Gabriel D. W. Wollenburg posted the story he’d originally submitted for inclusion in “Wordhouse!”