Second “Sister”

Words: 02-14-16-2001
Music: 02-14-16-2001

What’s It All About?

This was written thinking about my old high-school girlfriend. She and I had a relationship that, as I remember it, was even more tumultuous and full of drama than most at that age. It wasn’t until twenty years later that we finally understood: our continual crises weren’t thanks to my melodramatic nature, her abusive father, or her own self destructive tendencies. Well, not entirely. Turns out she’s also had a form of schizophrenia that wasn’t diagnosed until late in her thirties.

Damn, that explained a lot.

The Sonic Youth song “Schizophrenia” always reminded me of her, so this is a kind of thematic sequel to that tune. Toward the end of my time with Running Erin, we played it, but I don’t have any recordings of us doing it. The version here was recorded solo, acoustic guitar and vocals, direct to hard drive. No effects or overdubs.

Lyrics:

“Second ‘Sister’” by Matthew Wayne Selznick

Can you train your sadness
Optimize reluctance
Go on record baby
Stand behind
Your mind

Do you hold surprises
As you dodge inquiries
Open letters waiting
Who knows what
You’ll find?

I went down to
Meet a friend
‘Til his sister came over
Blew my mind again

Can you find the answer
Sanity relapser
Go out on a limb
That’s where
I am
All of the time
So pay it no mind
Stand by your mind

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