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Sonitotum with Matthew Wayne Selznick Episode 004: The Wringer

The day I originally planned to record this episode didn’t work out the way I’d planned in many ways. Instead, my subconscious called me out on my own inauthentic behavior… and put me through an emotional wringer of anxiety and depressive behavior that took a few days to really shake off.

That experience was ultimately a fruitful one, though… both for me, going forward, and I hope for you, as well, if the lesson described in this episode resonate with you in your own creative struggle.

It’s all about breaking away from fear and the stagnatingly familiar in order to live the life, and make the art, we believe we want.

Want to talk about it? Leave a comment!

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Between editing this episode and releasing it, a very wise and dear friend led me to this article from Dr. Brené Brown. It fits.

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What Do You Think?

This episode, and all that led to this episode, was quite the emotional rollercoaster. I came off of that ride a little different and, hopefully, incrementally just a touch closer to who I want to be.

If you listened and you can relate, I’d love to hear about it.

Tell me what you think about the episode, and if you’re willing, please share your own experiences with depression and anxiety, especially with regard to how your own creative process is affected by those conditions.  Let’s hear from you in the comments!

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  1. Tim Tim

    Amazing, heartfelt episode. I’m glad I found this!

    • Matthew Wayne Selznick Matthew Wayne Selznick

      Aw, thanks Tim! Spread the word if you’re comfortable doing so — ratings and review in iTunes or wherever / however you listen to your podcasts help so much to raise the signal!

      Was there anything in particular that struck you about this episode and / or the subject?

      • Tim Tim

        The things that really stood out to me were your openness in discussing a tough topic and the fact that the answers just aren’t easy.

        • Matthew Wayne Selznick Matthew Wayne Selznick

          Thanks for that — and too true, the answers just aren’t easy… especially answers that lead to meaningful growth / progress / enhancement, in writing and everything else!

  2. Rebecca Burns Rebecca Burns

    “Depression is your brain overcompensating for nonexistent threats.” That’s going on my bulletin board!

    • Matthew Wayne Selznick Matthew Wayne Selznick

      Hi Rebecca! Your comment made my day. I will always try to be bulletin board worthy for you!

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