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004: The Wringer

Sonitotum with Matthew Wayne Selznick
Sonitotum with Matthew Wayne Selznick
004: The Wringer

The day I originally planned to record this episode didn’t work out the way I’d planned in many ways. Instead, my subconscious called me out on my own inauthentic behavior… and put me through an emotional wringer of anxiety and depressive behavior that took a few days to really shake off.

That experience was ultimately a fruitful one, though… both for me, going forward, and I hope for you, as well, if the lesson described in this episode resonate with you in your own creative struggle.

It’s all about breaking away from fear and the stagnatingly familiar in order to live the life, and make the art, we believe we want.

Want to talk about it? Leave a comment!

Links and Topics Mentioned In This Episode

Not Mentioned In This Episode, But Still…

Between editing this episode and releasing it, a very wise and dear friend led me to this article from Dr. Brené Brown. It fits.

What Do You Think?

This episode, and all that led to this episode, was quite the emotional rollercoaster. I came off of that ride a little different and, hopefully, incrementally just a touch closer to who I want to be.

If you listened and you can relate, I’d love to hear about it.

Tell me what you think about the episode, and if you’re willing, please share your own experiences with depression and anxiety, especially with regard to how your own creative process is affected by those conditions.  Let’s hear from you in the comments!

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The Music!

The opening theme song of Sonitotum is “Anastasia” written, performed, and recorded by yours truly, Matthew Wayne Selznick. You can hear or buy the full song on YouTube, Spotify,, iTunes, or just about anywhere you can buy or stream music online.

The closing and interstitial music is a little ditty I call “Gwinton,” also by yours truly, Matthew Wayne Selznick. It’s super-short and really just a looping thing, so it’s not available outside of the show.

On both songs, I play a 1972 Gibson Ripper bass guitar and a Fender “Bullet” Squire electric guitar. On “Anastasia,” the drums are performed on an Akai Professional MPD218 MIDI drum pad controller. For “Gwinton,” the drums are royalty-free loops found in the excellent Mixcraft Pro Studio software, which was also used to record, mix, and master both “Anastasia” and “Gwinton.”

Podcast Production and Hosting

Sonitotum is usually recorded using an Aurycle a460 large diaphragm studio condenser microphone through a Behringer U-Phoria UMC202HD (audio interface for directly connecting microphones and musical instruments to a computer). Outdoor / remote episodes are often recorded using my Audio-Technica ATR-3350IS omnidirectional condenser lavalier mic. The show is edited and mixed in Adobe Audition. The episode files are hosted and delivered by; the website is hosted by Dreamhost.

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  • Rebecca Burns

    “Depression is your brain overcompensating for nonexistent threats.” That’s going on my bulletin board!

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      Matthew Wayne Selznick

      Hi Rebecca! Your comment made my day. I will always try to be bulletin board worthy for you!

  • Amazing, heartfelt episode. I’m glad I found this!

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      Matthew Wayne Selznick

      Aw, thanks Tim! Spread the word if you’re comfortable doing so — ratings and review in iTunes or wherever / however you listen to your podcasts help so much to raise the signal!

      Was there anything in particular that struck you about this episode and / or the subject?

      • The things that really stood out to me were your openness in discussing a tough topic and the fact that the answers just aren’t easy.

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          Matthew Wayne Selznick

          Thanks for that — and too true, the answers just aren’t easy… especially answers that lead to meaningful growth / progress / enhancement, in writing and everything else!

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